To Hell and Back

Amazing news!

Not only is my Dad shaking his head

yes and no,

but yesterday Mom told Dad that she loved

him. Half-way kidding, she leaned

down and said, "You know...you could say

that you love me too!"...

and he tried to mouth

"I love you"

to her!

Oh...it doesn't stop there!!!

Today he pointed to the ventillator

and then raised his eyebrows, as if to ask,

"what the heck?".

Mom explained to him about how

sick he had been and that everything is okay,

but that he's on a ventillator.

Then he pointed to his feet and

raised his eyebrows again.

His feet...aren't in good shape.

His blood pressure has been so unstable that

they've had to have him on multiple blood pressure

medications just to keep him alive.

The thing about being on high doses of BP meds is that

it can cut off circulation to your extremities in order

to save your major organs.

So...his organs are looking much better,

but his feet look ghastly.

His toes are black.

Tomorrow the surgeon will be coming by

to see if they are going to have to

amputate his toes and

 possibly his

feet.

So, Dad has noticed that his feet are...

black.

Mom tried to explain why,

but Dad was visibly upset and kept

furrowing his eyebrows at her, almost like

he was mad at her.

She said, "Bud, are you mad at me?"

and do you know what he did?

He put his hand on top of her hand!

Can you even stand it?!

People!!!

This is the man that just

DAYS ago, they were trying to pressure us

to turn the machines off!

They told us that there was absolutely

no hope

and that we were just

delaying

the innevitable.

Not only are they bringing the surgeon in

tomorrow (which is something they haven't done until

now....because...why would you amputate

the foot of a corpse...)

but they're bringing in physical therapy to

start the rehibilitation process,

and they're trying to

wean him

off of the ventilator!

Dad is famous in the ICU!

Nurses and Doctors keep coming in to look

at him, because

NO BODY

can believe that he's still alive,

much less

making a recovery!!!!

I don't know much...

but one thing I do know

is that

my God reigns!

He is mighty,

He is sovereign,

He is faithful,

and he loves to reveal his power

to those who are

crazy enough

to believe that he's able!

I'm not about to pretend that my faith was perfect!

I doubted just as most of you probably did.

I came to a place where my prayer changed from

"Lord, please heal him",

to

"Lord, please have mercy on him and

just take him home".

But through this experience, I am so

unbelievably aware that

I know nothing!

Who am I to think that I should tell the

creator of the universe

how to run things?

His ways truly are greater than our own.

He has taken something so

impossible

and has turned it around for

His Glory!

I am humbled, speachless, and

so grateful.

He's so real and so capeable of handling

whatever impossible

situation you might be facing!

Draw near to him, and

he will draw near to you!

{and you know what? He can certainly heal those

black toes if he so wishes!}